More tidbits and cute pics have emerged from Nicki Minaj’s ‘Cosmopolitan’ feature in which she shows off her girlie smile for the November cover story. Inside, she reveals her pre-career suicidal thoughts as well as how she’s played the game as a female in the industry. She also speaks on the Lady Gaga comparisons and what physical attributes she loves on a man:

On dealing with industry guys

 

“When you come into the business as a woman, you have to pay a lot of mind games because the men tend to be very aggressive. It’s like chess—you have to protect your goods. Had I just started screwing the guys, it would’ve been over because they never would’ve taken me seriously.” On the difference between her and Lady Gaga “I think Gaga is freakin’ dope for that. But I can’t be bothered. Give me my sweats. I like transforming from completely raggedy to ‘Ahhh, I’m ready’. That transformation gives me a high.”

 

On her abusive father

“He would beg, cry, stalk us… One time, he pulled my mother out of a car and dragged her for two blocks. After that, I had a phobia about unlocked doors. Anywhere my mother and I were, I made sure the door was locked, because that was my only way to protect her.”

On her suicidal thoughts

“I kept having doors slammed in my face. I felt like nothing was working. I had moved out on my own, and here I was thinking I’d have to go home. It was just one dead end after another. At one point, I was, like, ‘What would happen if I just didn’t wake up?’ That’s how I felt. Like maybe I should just take my life?’ I would pray to God to make me famous so that I could buy my mother a huge house.

On what attracts her to a man physically

 

“I do like a dope nose profile, one that’s straight on the side. And I like full lips. I’ve never kissed someone who didn’t have full lips.” Read more: Nicki Minaj Talks Suicidal Thoughts, Lady Gaga & Mind Games With Industry Guys In Cosmo | Necole Bitchie.com

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