According to Bossip Kendra Wilkinson’s life has been turned upside down ever since husband Hank Baskett was dropped by the Philadelphia Eagles and signed to the Minnesota Vikings. Now, Kendra sits down with Life & Style, to discuss her heart breaking decision to take son, 11-month-old Hank, back to LA–alone.

“Not having Hank around hurts,” Kendra tells Life & Style. “Moving across the country by myself makes me think of my own mom who raised me and my brother alone. Hank’s not going to be there forever, but with him not physically here, I’m a single parent now.”

With Hank so far away, Kendra felt most at home on the West Coast. “I fit in well in Philly, and I could relate to all the people, but the West Coast is my home. This is where all my family and friends are.”

Hank’s decision to sign with the Minnesota Vikings — and spend time away from his family– resulted in a screaming match with his exasperated wife. “It hurt a lot,” Kendra tells Life & Style. “When Hank left I felt lonely. He’s my everything. Nobody else can really fill that loneliness.” She admits there’s been a lot of tears throughout this time. “We cry. It’s hard, and we aren’t ashamed to cry.”

But thanks to her family and Hank’s, she has a big support system to turn to for help. Still, there’s no substitute for being together with her husband. “I’m going to go back to the minus-2-degree weather to spend Thanksgiving, baby Hank’s 1st birthday and Christmas in a small one bedroom hotel room with my husband and son. That’s all that matters to me.”

Well she made the decision to get married.. till death do us part… poor her and her beautiful family and money..